Dreaming with a Broken Heart

One of my favorite songs is "Dreaming with A Broken Heart by John Mayer". I fell in love with it last summer , around jUne. I started to watch So YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE, and mia michaels choreographed a routine, and from there I fell in love with the song. The routine spoke to me in so many ways. If I was as advanced as ij or matt, i would post the video here butI'm not.

This brings me to today's topic. Heartbreak. I've been the frontman for this so many times. I've always wanted something, and never got it. Usually I let these things go and they never come back. but this thing did, and it brung me tons of heartache. haha; reminds me of a song Heather headley "in my mind". In my mind things are always perfect, sometimes they revolve around me, but when it does revolve around me, it benifits other people.

but anywho back to Dreaming with a broken heart, I dont even know the significance of the song, I'll be sure to ask mr.roddy to explain it to me.
Our situation is so confusing, it's been like a 2year crush haha. We've been through so much, and talking to you yesterday didnt make things anybetter. It felt like the minute I pressed send, a giant bus hit me. I was overcome with so many emotions. Maybe I'm Bi-polar, naaa, just in fcking lust. Lust could be a bit overboard, maybe idk. The most confusing part is that you know, and yet you play dumb. I ask you why do you play dumb, and you say "you called me dumb, so I'm dumb". Whatever this shit is so confusing.

Maybe i'll go fall asleep with roses in my hand.

Decisions

In this life you are presented with many opportunities to make some decisions.
Some of us make good ones and some of us make bad ones. It's up to you to think about the consequences or the way you feel after somethings happen. You dont even want to happen.
I cant change the past , only can change the future.
I'm not a disrespectful person, i just dont like being hushed or going along with the flow of things.. Dont get me wrong ; I close my mouth sometimes actually alot.
It's been a few years since since I've actually opened my mouth. I'm a nice respectful person, but I find myself starting to speak my mind. Mainly because when i'm muted ; I suffer alot.
When I speak my mind, the fact that I'm a child hurts me. I think that is totally bull, everyone in this world is entitled to an opinion. Wtf?! G0sh.
But I wont let it stop me. Haha.
I'm really bored right now.
I havent been anywhere in a long time ; and I havent partied, been to the movies or anything.
I'm dying to get out but okay. The time will come. I hope.
I'm excited about working at Clementon park this summer, mainly because I'm getting paid and its fun meeting new people.
Back to Decisions though ; Somepeople make really bigs one and thus fail to realize how it CHANGED THEM AS A PERSON. I'm thinking 100%. But whatever, haha.
I'll probably be blogging tonight. Seeing as though Ill be ultra bored. Haha.